It's funny.

God has been showing me stuff about joy -

Like how if you don't keep your eyes on the joy set before you, you won't have the strength to do the things you are called to. Like how if the devil can't steal your joy, he can't take your stuff. Like how the joy OF THE LORD is my very lifeblood and it only comes from His sweet presense in my every second.

You know when He teaches you something there is generally a reason why you need it? We call it the tigger annointing - bouncing in the face of impossibility, pressure, circumstance.

So today, I'm going to bounce. Today i am going to press further in to God's sweet presense. Today I'm not letting go of the joy that's mine by inheritence. With tears in my eyes, i go deeper and make the exchange - my tears for His joy, His presense.

Because I have the same DNA as Jesus, joy is mine. Not mauufactured joy. Not religious joy. I mean REAL JOY.

That way, I'm laughing.

Introducing...!!

This last week has been the most intense for me so far - kinda a culmination of the other weeks which softened the ground for the Holy Spirit to work on me! It's so special! so this (above) is the new Sarah - she looks pretty similar but believe me - she's not the same!!

So other than hanging out with the Holy Spirit i've um been well um hanging out with the Holy Spirit - this is what i do a lot of ==>

- journaling - can't quite keep up with myself! We have a lot of reading, study and homework to do - so i have my nose in a book a lot! we're reading the whole bible this year and studying it in class as we go - its so good.

I'm really knowing daddy's love - he's provided me with some really key friends who are just pulling out the gold in me - yesturday we just had the giggles as we stepped into a new level of joy - its just so fun! Bill was sharing a profound messege with the first year of school - which was amazing too! All about not checking yourself for motives because it shifts your focuss of Jesus and His glorification - the devil loves to cripple us by getting us naval gazing!

You know His blessings are just so spectacular - i needed a car while i am here bacause it's built around cars here and your totally stuck without - so i prayed a momentry plea - 'God i don't know how but i need a car - can you sort it out for me?' the next day my roomate said i can car share her car - you wanna see the car God provided for free?... ok check this out for heavenly provision...

And after recieving financial blessing i just prayed for another guy at school who was struggling financially and he got an incredible financial blessing within a week! its crazy - we don't understand it all - but lets keep passing it on!!

Bless you all!

I am Bridget

boyfriend: 0 (but whole and happy with self)
weight: unknown (and sticking to it)
ww points consumed: now unknown as pastries and donuts points value cannot be found due to general presumption they will not be consumed whilst on ww.
cigerettes: 0 but now considering valid option
balls planned: 1
riding planned: 1
glamerous weekend away with the girls planned: 2
exercise: 2
spiritual moments: 0 (but may just have one now as missing God chats)

I did an msn 'are you going to die because you're obese' test yesturday. asked all sorts of personal questions and was, i feel, quite inaapropriate. Anyway complied and worked out weightage in kg as silly system does not work in stone like rest of sane world. was very complicated to work out and involved great mathmatical and research skills. good for me. Anyway it said i was in the most 'at risk' catagory as had over 5 points on test. oh dear. plus it's probably not too promising as underestimated weight (as from last weight watchers meeting over 2 months ago and height which I'm never sure of - must measure before i die. preferably not of obesity as would not look exceedingly glamerous and dignified on death certificate). Anyway. point being: Kg very bizarre race.

Thing most disterbing when reading highly acclaimed and intelectual novel 'Edge of Reason'. Is frequant mention of weightage and general implication that rather large with lots of help needed to combat largeness. primarily large underwear, gym regime etc. but again point being, 9 st 6 undercuts weight of self considerably, so making self feel very obese - both through literary world and msn world and pastry and donut just consumed. gaaaah.

Not sure if good for mental state to be reading said book. hmmmm