Trust Me

For quite some time, everywhere I looked I would see the number 11:11. I saw "ones" everywhere. They would appear on clocks, timetables, radios, photographs, receipts, and hotel room doors. I would glance at the clock on my phone only once or twice a day, and if the time wasn’t 11:11, it would be 1:11 or 11:01. It could have been a coincidence, but somehow I knew that it wasn’t.

Whenever I asked God what it meant, I would only get a smile in return. I happened to be in one of the most difficult seasons of my life, and every time I saw 11:11, it reminded me that He was here with me, and that was all I needed. Sometimes seeing the number would make me laugh out loud; sometimes it would make me cry. It never failed, however, to move my heart and bring my focus back to the reality that God is good and His promises are true for my life.

One day during this time, I walked into the bathroom at my parent’s home in Southern England. Some poor, unsuspecting male in the family had left the toilet seat up. I was livid. So furious, in fact, that even in my state of blind rage I could see that my anger was vastly out of proportion to the situation at hand.

I immediately looked heavenward and asked Papa what was going on. Why was I so angry? The answer came back: “Because you ARE angry.”

As I heard His words, I had the startling realization that I had been feeling constantly angry for a long time. I asked Him why and His answer stunned me. “You are angry with me, because your life hasn’t worked out the way you thought it would.” I was incredulous. After all, wasn’t He my closest friend and constant support through this dark season? Yet, at the same time, I knew it was true. I was undone. The toilet seat was not the object of my pain; my loss of trust in God was.

Sarah in Genesis has long been my hero, so when I finally found my 11:11 in the book of Hebrews, I was captured by the simplicity and power found in this statement about faith:
"For [Sarah] considered Him faithful who had promised."

Faithfulness is the source of faith. A promise has only as much value as the person making it. In evaluating his words to us, we are actually judging whether or not we believe that God is trustworthy. Faith is not spelt R-I-S-K. It is spelt T-R-U-S-T. Unless, of course, you consider God to be a risky bet.

Every promise and dream for your life is anchored in the level of trust you have in God. "Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." It is our knowledge of His faithfulness that gives us assurance of the promises He has made. This is faith: judging Him faithful who has promised.

If we do not have faith in Him, our belief in His promises are based on what we can currently see happening around us. This, as I experienced, often results in our feeling as though the carpet has been pulled out from under our feet. Faith is essential because in the day when you cannot see the promises for your life, your trust in Him has to be your guarantee. We must have ‘the conviction of things unseen.’

When trust is real in your heart, hope is never deferred. Your hope for the promises He has spoken to you is secured in who He is, not your circumstances. This is faith. We can have confidence in a promise before we see it become a reality, because the one who has made the promise is the ultimate assurance.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a promise realised is the tree of life.
It is not the absence of fulfilled promises that ‘makes the heart sick,’ but when hope itself is deferred. It is easy to be hope-full continually when you trust the one that promises good things. We realise His promises are assured and it is our tree of life.

Sweet Alabama

I had the awesome privilege to travel to Alabama with some giants in the Kingdom this week. It was amazing.

Hundreds got healed and I got to participate in a bunch :) Thank you for praying - it was a great trip and I grew a lot - thank you!!

Releasing the rhema word
Two nights in a row i gave a word of knowledge from the front, but when the people responded they found they were already healed as the word was released - they didn't even give me a chance to pray for them!! ha ha! I love it!!

The first was a young man from Atlanta with 3 broken lumber vertebrae who had a metel rod in his back holding it rigid. He was not only completely healed on the spot, but also had full mobility - it will be interesting to hear what happened to that rod!

The 2nd were a group of people with a specific fracture in the base of their toe(s). Several of these were healed when the word was released. Bill Johnson (who was leading the trip) sensed this and paused to ask them before we continued. They tested it out and several were healed already!

At school we are taught to take notice of coincidences because they are oftentimes the language of the spirit. I had never seen people healed just by me releasing a word of knowledge and then I had two in a row. I'm taking note and learning that what we say and release has creative power!

Hip Restored

I also prayed for a pastor who was scheduled for a right hip replacement within two weeks. She  had no cartilage and her hip was bone on bone (very painful!!). We prayed and then asked her to test it out by doing things she couldn't do before. First she put on her sock, then she walked, then she ran and then she ran up and down stairs!! We eventually told her she could stop, but she cried saying "No!! I get to do this now!!" This was a really encouraging miracle for me as it's something I'm contending for with a family member. Since there is creative power in telling the testimony - maybe this will be the day!!

Ovarian Cysts Dissolved

I had the privilege of praying for a young woman who had ovarian cysts on her left side. One cyst was so big that she could feel it with her hand and it was extremely painful. As we prayed she felt it dissolve and could no longer feel it with her fingers or feel any pain!! God is so cool!! She is going to get the medical results this week :)


New Website and Itinerary

Bill has a new website - it's awesomely interactive!! It was created to resource people hungry for the Kingdom. Please go and check it out at http://www.bjm.org Our trip is blogged on there :) Bill is also coming to your area of the world: if you want to access more of the Kingdom, I really recommend you go. My life has never been the same since I heard him teach:

Feb 2 - 4
New Wine Cymru - On Earth as it is in Heaven
City Temple
Cardiff, Wales
www.flamesoffire.co.uk/news_and_events/bill_johnson.php
April 22 - 25
United Kingdom Healing School with Randy Clark
Southampton, United Kingdom
www.globalawakening.com

April 28 - 30
New Wine Stockholm
Stockholm, Sweden
new-wine.org/countries/Sweden.htm

Blessings!
Sarah XX

Stories of Jesus

Friends and Countrymen!

As we go after the King and His Kingdom together I wanted to send each of you my love for this Christmas and New Year! I am excited by the day we live in and the joy that is ours. God is so good!! Have a ton of fun over the holidays and an awesome 2009! The mince pies are made, the brandy butter is chillin and I'm excited!

Something else to get happy about...

Miracles

This week I got the opportunity to pray for a young woman who had arthritis in her wrist and hand. Now arthritis often feels to me like it comes with fear attached and I get angry. There was something there that my spirit reacted against. I felt that there was a spirit attached with this one, not that the woman had done anything wrong, but her body was under attack.

I prayed for a short time just simply binding the arthritis and releasing strength and healing. I asked her to test it out and she did! Big time! All the pain had gone! We praised Jesus big time too! She was so stoked and shocked, as it was something she had been contending for for a long time.

Yey Jesus is the King!!

I am going on a trip to Alabama with Bill and his team on the 2nd January. Please pray for our travels and that God would have His way there. Expect some stories! Remember that we all share in the inheritance of each-others encounters with God, because the 'testimony (stories) of Jesus, IS the Spirit of prophecy'. In other-words, testimonies release the prophetic power to do it again! Sounds good :)

Merry Christmas!

Much love!

Sarah

heal, elbow, cancer

Yesterday I went to my seat in-between Sunday morning services. The lady in the row behind me looked quizzically at me and asked me where I was from, not my name. I told her and she got very excited. She said ‘I thought it was you! I’ve been looking for you since September!’. I guess the Englishness is my defining feature!

Heal Healed
She went on to tell me how I had prayed for her heal one Sunday morning in late September. I remembered her and remembered how the presence of God had been so strong and sweet while we prayed. She told me that though she could feel things happening inside her foot, the pain had not left when I prayed that day, when she woke up the next day it was completely gone and hadn’t returned since then. She had had excruciating shooting pain in her heal for one and a half years up until then. We were both very happy!!! She was so moved by Jesus healing her – it was so special. It reminded me that when we pray we should never be discouraged if we don’t see it happen before our eyes, because we’ve prayed – something has to happen!!! Even if it’s that night while they sleep.

Elbow Healed
So then she told me that her left elbow was in a lot of pain too. She couldn’t lift a cup of coffee with it because it hurt too much. She wanted me to pray for it right then and there and I was more than happy to. I prayed and the pain lessened so much that when she tested by pushing strongly against my hand it didn’t hurt at all! She moved it around and there was still a slight twinge so we prayed again. Struck by the power and passion of God she received her healing right then with tears rolling down her cheeks. I was overcome by the sweetness of God.

Miracles never get old for me. Each time I am struck by the love and power of our God who cares so much about our lives. It’s such a privilege to pray ‘Your Kingdom come!’ and watch what happens. I love Him!


Cancer Healed
It’s so important to pray. I realise over and over how much we carry the key to heaven in our hands. The other day a classmate of mine found his colleague upset at work. He had previously released the presence of God on this guy, a non-Christian. It had been an amazing experience for the guy who had felt electricity running into him during the encounter at the store where they both work. So when my classmate asked him what was wrong he was really open and said that his grandmother had been diagnosed with serious cancer. He was devastated by the prognosis that she had only weeks to live. My classmate was deeply moved with compassion and so asked if he could pray. His colleague jumped at the chance, so right there outside the door of the shop they prayed – releasing life into the lady’s body. Within a week the doctors report came back that the grandmother was completely clear of cancer after no treatment. The doctors were astonished. We were very happy. It was a sweet moment when he told us the news in class during testimony time. We all leapt to our feet, shouting and cheering – this is what we live for!

Miracles in Fremont

I traveled to Fremont at the weekend (yes my car made it!!!) with a team of 4 and Eric and Candice Johnson. We had the most fun trip and were totally spoilt by Harvest House Church there.

Sunday morning Candice spoke on Trust and Distrust and Eric spoke on stewarding Favor. it was really good - and we had to practice receiving favor all weekend. I have a ways to go.

We opened up the meeting to word of knowledge call outs for healing needs and prayed for the the sick with the church. One local guy i was praying for had pain in his right elbow for 30 years since he dislocated his shoulder and broke his arm as a child. it was particularly bad that day and he had been complaining to his wife about the pain. We prayed and half the pain left the elbow, but of course we pray again (much to his bewilderment).

THe man started rotating his arm so that they were both faced palm upwards and he kept repeating over and over and over again "this is so weird, this is so weird". I asked him what was weird and he told me that he hadn't been able to rotate his right arm at all for those 30 years...and of course all 100% of the pin had gone! I love my God!

'My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, 5so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power.' 1 Cor 2

In the evening Eric taught in their school of supernatural ministry - an offshoot of BSSM. It was great. He taught on having the highest honor for the presence of God. He told the story of how a well known revivalist held a dinner with lots of leaders there to meet with him and how he felt the Spirit show up and he knew that he needed to go be alone with God. without hesitation he excused himself from the meeting and went to his hotel where he had an encounter with God.

It was a good teaching. We then opened up the meeting for the team (i.e. me) to prophesy from the front. Happily I already had one loaded as god had spoken to me in my nap to "tell john that he is worthy" I knew that john was thinking of starting a new venture in life or business and needed God's encouragement. So i took the microphone first and asked "is there anyone here called John?". Happily there was and there was only one. He got rocked. I thought it could be hard after that but they just flowed as the team pointed people out and prophesied life and grace into them. It was so sweet.

What a day we live in that God shows up and people get changed forever.

I LOVE CHURCH. I HATE CANCER.

I love my church - these are all the people just in 2nd service who have been healed of cancer.


and this is them passing the healing along. Because freely they have received and freely they give.


The kingdom is all about this flow - everything we get, we get to give away. it's a privilege and requirement for increase :) When we do something with what we've been given we are like the guy with the talents who invested what he was given and so was given more.

I Hate cancer and God hates cancer. He never uses it. He never partners with it. He never starts it. and he never prolongs it. He hates it like He hates sin. which is why we can always pray with confidence knowing He wants it gone and that He paid a high price to destroy it.

So lets establish the freedom He paid so much for :)

Desire Lost

How quickly dost the signs of love pale
And sweet nothings, fade to nothing
Those hints at epic romance, become loose change
Lost without thought
And valued as no value.

Your love still burns, but I see only embers
Your heart still turns, but I see only shadows
What was once bold, I count as lost
Not seen to mine eye
Or my mind
Or my heart

But hope holds me.
That when all is cold and faded
A new light shall spark
And you shall find a new way to romance this fickle heart
Your ways are higher than my ebbing interest
And your love is stronger than my weakness

And so soon and suddenly we will sour together
Onto a mountain top
Higher than before
We will be swept up in each other
And my passion will come back to the fore
Not hidden under a bowl but blazing
Joining your fire with my fire

This, this is my desire.

letter to a friend about a new kidney :)

I keep forgetting to tell you an awesomely awesome story about a miracle in me!!

so...

with great suspense...

lol

k. so a few years ago i had a kidney infection in my right kidney and it wiped me out so much they took me to hospital and while i was in there getting all the tests they found that i had the infection and why it was so bad was because my left kidney was the size of a thumb nail and was only outputting 3% kidney function. they said i could live on 1 kidney but that i need to be really careful with these repeated infections because it meant i had no back up.

so a few years later, like 2007, found myself with a odd bunch of people called Bethelites in a little town in northern california. these said bethelites held a youth conference in February called duh duh duuuuh: 'ENCOUNTER'.

while at the conference fun and crazy man named todd bentley pointed into the crowd - at me - and said there was someone there who's kidneys was going to get healed and they were to stand up.

(now i had regularly told God that he could whack me anytime anywhere - i just wanted the whacking - i am foolish lol)


so i stood up infront of everyone and the moment i did i started being shaken like a doll. very cool but also just slightly embarrassing. so after quite a while of violent shaking, i stupidly tried to stop it and was pretty unsuccessful but managed at least to sit down (thinking that then no one would see - duh -not too bright)

my friend emily walker, a 2nd year from norway, Bill j and a bunch of other bethelites had been praying for me - unbeknown to me (due to excessive shakingness). they asked, of course, if i could test the healing - and of course i couldn't :( so really didn't think much more of the whole deal apart from i had truly been whacked :)

k we're getting there i promise...

take a sip of starbucks and blink lots to refresh straining eyes :)...

k the point approaches...

so for a while i have been feeling a little sick and so they ran some test and i went to the hospital for an ultrasound about 3 weeks ago to check my spleen (you will probably actually know what that is - i have no clue. grin). whilst the checked the spleen, they also asked (quite a random question i think) if there was anything else i wanted them to look at. it suddenly occurred to me that i could have them check my left kidney.

the lovely lady took a look and measured it - it was now 6.5cm (the usual being 9cm and my other measuring 12cm because it compensated the other one when i was young). she said it was smallish but that it was in the limits of normal. what she couldn't work out was how it had grown from like 2cm :)


i'm not sure if i instantly got a new 6cm kidney during Encounter 07 or whether its been miraculously growing ever since and will hit 9 cm one of these days. either way - i have 100% kidney function and two, within the range of normal, kidneys.

sweet.

k that was longer than expected - you can now finish your starbucks and i will start mine :)

love you girl xxx

S

these will keep you going for years...

it is not a good day to go to bed and have no blood on my sword

not all who wander are aimless

Your preparation is in direct relation to your purpose

The young do not know enough to be prudent, and therefore they attempt the impossible -- and achieve it, generation after generation (American Writer Pearl S. Buck 1892-1973)

The greatest destroyer of peace is abortion because if a mother can kill
her own child, what is left for me to kill you and you to kill me? There
is nothing between.

It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may
live as you wish.

heal the sick, raise the dead, cast out demons and never changing the subject

It is a kingly act to assist the fallen.

The success of love is in the loving - it is not in the result of loving.

it is foolish to worship angels, it is equally foolish to ignore them

if i leave prayer the same way i went in, i wasn't praying, i was complaining.

on earth as it is in heaven - there is no cancer in heaven!

unbelief is anti-christ in nature.

God is good.

performing for none, living for one.

if you fear man, then you will not fear God.

you're area of greatest opposition is your area of destiny

disappointment will either push you towards breakthrough or to back away from it.

it's not humility to deny what Jesus exchanged with you at the cross - he got all of you and you got all of him.

joshua 1:5-9

If you want to be kept by God, you must keep.

Sin is a heart problem, a mistake is a mistake.

trust = love

pam spinosi writes:

One morning in 2003, I found it hard to pray because I awoke hit with the “realization” that God had not answered my prayer about an important issue in my life. To continue to hope seemed pointless, for I felt it was already over. Then I thought about Lazarus’ death.

In John 11:3, Jesus’ friends had asked Him to do something for them—heal their brother—expecting He would because He loved Lazarus. “If you love me, Lord, it should look like this…” Jesus purposely stayed two more days because He didn’t plan to heal Lazarus but to raise him from the dead. When He arrived, both Mary and Martha essentially said to Him the same thing: “It’s over, Lord. You were too late. You didn’t do anything.” His response to them differed notably.

He had an answer for Martha: “If you believe, you’ll see the glory of God.” He revealed something about Himself to Martha through this situation. He said, “I am the resurrection and the life.” Every time He reveals Himself or a part of His character, He precedes it with “I am.” He was showing her that He is resurrection and life. The others who came to console the family also questioned His goodness, but they, too, got to see the glory of God when Jesus raised Lazarus.

Mary, to whom He was evidently closer, received no reply from Him but a groan. He seemed to entrust Mary with the deeper—but harder—lesson. Could He have expected her not to need an explanation but to trust even in His silence and in the contradiction?

Though she loved Him, Mary’s trust was being tested. If we fear, our love is not perfect (I John 1:17, 18). What really counts is “faith that works by love” (Gal. 5:6). Fear is an enemy of both faith and love.

I have heard it said, “What you fear, you worship.” I once saw an actual statue of Baal in a museum in Carthage, Tunisia. All the gold on earth could not have compelled me to bow down and worship that ugly little thing. Yet I have given my worship to fear. How foolish! Even the Baal statue is cuter than the fiendish face of fear.

I have begun to discover fear’s little hideouts—places where I exhibit a lack of trust.

When I wallow in regret, I am not trusting in God’s redemption.
When I fume with impatience, I am not trusting in His timing.
When I grasp selfishly, I am not trusting in His provision.
When I complain, I am not trusting in His character.
When I think it’s only up to me, I am not trusting in His Fatherhood.
When I conclude all is lost and over, I am not trusting in His power, wisdom and goodness.

He is God! My default drive should be peace. Assurance. In everything, my dad works for my good. He is good—and I am loved.

During a painful time of waiting, I once said to the Lord, “Did Joseph really keep trusting you in all those years of prison?” His reply was to remind me that the “trying of our faith is more precious than gold” (I Peter 1:7), and I understood something. Maybe what Jesus had hoped to get from Mary, a woman who had lavished him with ardent, costly worship, was her trust even in inexplicable circumstances.

We are hearing reports of huge, precious jewels dropping from heaven in people’s yards. Giving Him our trust is like depositing precious jewels on His lawn! These jewels are incomparable, invaluable. He treasures them as you would a ruby from heaven. We can give God a gift of worth and beauty as exquisite as a ruby. But we can only give such a gift of trust now when we can’t see and when we don’t understand; we won’t be able to give Him that when we are face to face with Him in heaven. When we choose to trust while in the dark place, when we are unmoved by what happens—or doesn’t—in our own “four days” between the “end” (our deadline) and when Jesus shows up, we are offering an immeasurably pleasant sacrifice to our God. Pondering that thought dims the painful feelings that clamor for my attention and makes me want to pour out on Him again what I alone can give Him—my own unwavering confidence in His goodness.

God doesn’t help us give Him this gift—nor does He make us. He has given us grace, but we choose whether to use it to trust Him. A child’s drawing is always a precious gift to me. Little children all over the world have blessed me with their drawings and paintings. I treasure and save every one. The artwork would mean less to me, though, if I had held the children’s hands and directed their strokes—or even asked for their drawing. Instead, these pieces are their own creations, freely offered to me from their hearts. I love them because they come from the children. God loves the trust that comes from us. We can’t fathom how much.

Once He asked me if I would follow Him even if I didn’t get what I had hoped and waited for. Shadrach, Meshach and Abed-nego confessed their faith in God’s ability to deliver them but added, “But if not…we will not serve your gods” (Daniel 3:17, 18). Peter said, “Where else can we go, Lord?” (John 6:68). Like theirs, my answer was, “Yes.”

Most of us will face what Mary and Martha faced. Some situation may tempt us to think our Lord has forgotten and disappointed us. Four days had passed since Lazarus died and the sisters acquiesced to the theory that their Lord had let them down. What will you do in those days of discouragement between the death of the promise and the arrival of Jesus? Will you despair and blame Him for failing you? Or will you honor Him with your precious gift of trust and let Him reveal to you some new aspect of His glory?

Struggling with Questions?

God is Good.

This is an amazing amazing message mix that will take your confusion and point it at the truth.

Please click on the link below and liston to the track 'God is Good' - if we could really get this, it would solve so much of our heartache, struggle and confusion.

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Dissapointment will either make us more desperate for breakthrough or crush our beliefs. Let's make it the door to breakthrough.

much love xx

Because of Vicky

Today is a day of sadness.

As we sat through Vicky's funeral a whole concoction of emotions were running through me. Mainly just a deep sadness for what has happened. That Vicky was not going to see her kids grow up and get married; that she wasn't going to spend decades with Rob and that she wasn't going to get to do all that she wanted to.

Yes deep sadness is where we are at. I was also sad that we hadn't reached a place of seeing her healed. You see, we don't chase after the fullness of the Kingdom just for fun. We chase after it because of days like today; because we don't want to have to do this again.

And we are getting there, and Rob and Vicky are part of it. We are so thankful for her amazing life, but angry that it was stolen from her. Despite this, she is still victorious.

This only consolidates my determination to run the race like Vicky. People come to us to find the power of Jesus and i will not stop until they do, every time.


This poem is for Vicky, because we don't want it to happen again:


I will bend my mind
And bend hell under me

I will host heaven
And dispel the darkness away from me

I will see from heights
The truth that scripture writes for me

****

I will understand the angelic commission
And foresee the demonic remission

I will be a student of heaven
And a teacher of Kingdom

I will flow out of intimacy
And draw people into Him

****

I will repel the cobwebs
And paper walls

I will ponder the works of God
And not the falls

I will set the tragedies free
And not centre them around me

****

I will dream as if nothing were impossible
And pull fire from heroes unstoppable
I will run the race and receive the prize,
of Kingdom come and God glorified

Handling Dissapointment

There are many of us who have contended alongside Vicky for her healing. We know it was God's will for her to be healed and yet, tragically, her death on Saturday is a reality.

I am so impressed by the faith of Living Waters, of her leadership and their courage to not bend the promises of God under attack and circumstance. I am so proud of my church, Vicky and Rob. Heroes of the faith.

Love is so important right now in our church family and grief so needed.

These times can be scary for us who put our faith on the line for something and our dissapointed that we didn't see the breakthrough. It's so important to rest in God's love and security and keep our minds renewed on the truth. Let's not give way.

I, and many friends have found teaching on dissapointment by Bill really helpful for this. He has been there and I trust him. He does specific teaching on this which you can download from the bethel church store, but much of it is contained in the 4 sessions at the new wine's leadership conference held a month ago. the link to download it is below thanks to Woodies. Bless you guys x

http://thefuse.info/news/4-new-fusecast-episodes-bill-johnson-at-new-wine-2007/

God Invades...!

My friend Darren, writes about last friday night outside starbucks in Redding California. He, and my other friends there, have been at school of ministry too. It's cool to hear that they are just doing the stuff...!!!

Darren writes...


I had to write this because of what happened tonight.
It's about 12:55 am and we just got back from discovery village.

A couple hours earlier ...

I had got to discovery village at about 10:30 to meet joel, karen, and camille. We end up talking outside starbucks and just hanging out. There are two black guys that we end up meeting, charles and garland. They came from LA and are visiting; and I realized that I had seem them both at school earlier. Anyways, charles and garland come over and they both actually come and sing for us since they told us they lead worship down at their church in LA. They both finish and charles ends up getting me drunk and I fall down laughing!

Well, 4 girls, who are in high school we find out,sitting down besides us were watching charles and garland sing and laughed with us; after I fell down, however, they come over and start asking Karen "Is he (me) okay?" I'm still laughing and Karen starts explaining to them what's going on. I eventually get called over there and we talk to them about our youth kids and how they have been seeing angels and getting crazy encounters. Karen tells one of the girls that she sees fashion over her and she gets the chills and tells us that she wants to be a fashion designer when she grows up! Well, I feel the prophetic wave coming up and I start gathering words of knowledge.

Two of the girls start talking to Karen and Camille and we have two of the girl's attention. I am talking to one of them and I tell her, "Hey, this might sound totally crazy and I could be totally wrong, but I just see you with a lot of children." She almost but doesn't quite understand and I ask her if she likes children. She is a little shocked and she asks me, "How did you know that?" I tell her that I see her loving on children and I saw her as a teacher, loving on children that never had love growing up and that she was changing many children's lives through it. She begins to cry and she tells me that she's wanted to be a teacher since growing up and earlier that day, those 4 girls had been talking about her and children! While she's crying, I start prophesying about how she's been wanting something real and she is getting freaked out; telling us that for weeks now, she's been crying out to God to see if God is real or not.

Karen on the other side with Camille, ends up praying for one of the girl's back because of back pains. She gets instantly healed and starts freaking out while telling her friends that she never had this feeling before. We continue to minister, giving out words of knowledge and prophesying over the girl's lives. Karen and Camille end up praying for the other girl who had an ulcer in her stomache which caused pain and she couldn't eat regularly for the past 3 weeks. They finish praying and she says that the pain is all gone and she felt a cold touch on her stomache! She starts freaking out and begins to cry!

I walk over to the pair of girls Camille is talking with and as we talk, I had this word for one of the girls about family troubles. She instantly gets freaked out and walks away crying. Her best friends tell me about the recent situation in her life with family and when she comes back, she apologizes for walking away but we say it's fine. Me and Camille end up prophesying over her life that God wants to heal the family and is all about restoration. We start to teach them on the "misconceptions" about God and they all start to ask us questions because of their particular stage in life. This whole time, they are telling us that "It feels right to be here right now" and we tell them that it was totally God who set them up! I think 2 of them used to go to church but had never felt God this way.

Karen and Joel are talking to the other girls and start leading them through some stuff. Me and Camille walk over and find out that two of the girls have sculiosis which is a disease on the spine which makes it hurt a lot. Me and Camille put our hands on one of the girls back and as soon as I begin to pray, Camille feels a snap on her spine and starts laughing! Camille asks the girl, "DID YOU FEEL THAT?" and she ends up laughing and says, "YES" while her other friend who got healed of the ulcer is watching all of this! She then tells us that there is no more pain and that later on, she had to have gotten a surgery for it! All of the girls start telling us that they never had felt anything like this before. They got healed and touched by the Holy Spirit and it was fantastic.

All 4 of the girls are getting radically touched and we start telling them about Bethel and how they should come and they were so excited about coming. We still end up ministering to the 2nd girl who had sculiosis and all of us, including the girls, are praying for her. Karen is ministering to her prophetically and starts calling out the peace and destiny over her life while the rest of us are praying for healing. At the end of it, she is crying and we ask her about the pain. She tells us that it's all gone now!

They are all so overwhelmed at thinking "We are so glad that we came to discovery village tonight!" We end up praying and prophesying over charles and he falls over crying and laughing which got to show the girls how to minister to other people. We have them start laying their hands on him and praying over him and after a while, we have them pray over garland since he is getting drunk as well.

This whole ordeal lasted about 2 hours in the front of discovery village. There are so many other details about what happened tonight; the new levels of the prophetic and words of knowledge; teaching the girls how to listen to the Lord and showing them that God is not a God of judgment but a God of love!

It was freaking amazing. God totally showed up at discovery village.
The 4 girls are coming to church on sunday night and we are making them sit with us.

I love Jesus.

Jesus Culture

See more of what we got up to at www.jesusculture.org

wow wow wow

so much to say!!!!!!

I've been back at Bethel 3 weeks now and so much has been happening i feel like i havn't slept in um - well - 3 weeks!! i had major catch up to do from all i had missed and all the assignments i hadn't done. we've also had a bunch going on - steve buckley, bobby conner, mario murrillo and at the moment Todd Bentley have been spending time teaching at school and preaching here. It has been so good to sit under so many annointings and plug into other people's wells.

friday we saw 100 healings - multiple visable tumors dissapearing instantly, cancers going instantly, asthma going instantly, crippled legs being straightened out, bi-polar getting kicked out, deaf hearing, blind seeing - the lame wearn't walking - they were running and dancing. people that came in on walkers were lifting them over their head and demonstrating their healing - wow what things to see and days to live

This is the year of the billion soul harvest. The day isn't comming, it has come. last week we saw 500 saved, this week we saw 100. But its not going to happen all in Redding - we only have 80 000 on our hands - and believe me thats enough for us to cope with! Its breaking out everywhere, 44 000 weekly in China, millions in Africa, 500 just recently in Muslim Asia...The wave is comming.

What i was wondering yesturday was whether we would be like the famous little girl on the beach that recognised the signs of the impending Tsunami or wether we will be unaware of the signs of the times and miss this opotunity to break out and live in view of the knowledge of what's going on.

What a time to be alive - the biggest revival to ever hit the earth is going on, the demonstration of the gospal with supernatural power is breaking out more than ever before - mighty ones of God are rising up and possessing the land - pulling the kingdom onto earth.

It's a privalage to be on God's team today - with such amazing team-mates!!

Lets go to the next level!! - yeah Jesus!!

Some unoriginal (but rather good) thoughts

These people say that they are mine

they Honour me with their lips but their hearts are far from me

and their worship of me is nothing but man made rules learned by rote

Because of this I will once again astound these hypocrites with Amazing Wonders

The wisdom of the wise will pass away

and the intelligence of the intelligent will disappear...

I was thinking today quite sceptically of a couple of people who claim some really far out supernatural experiences and then I was blown away by these verses in Isaiah 29.

Oh God I want to see wonders but not because I'm a hypocrite!Though now I'm thinking 'ok i still don't want to be an unbelieving hypocrite, but i know i need to still have my mind messed with by some wonderous works of God'. God come out of the box I've put you in! I don't want to just upgrade the size of my God box, I want him out of the box (whatever that looks like (gulp!))!!

Signs that Make You Wonder

God first...!!

OK so are you ready to put British rationalism to the side for a moment and check out some stuff that's going on. it really helps me to remember what Aslan said about the suspicious and synical dwaves in The Last Battle - 'They are so scared of being taken in, that they cannot be taken out [into heaven]'. Yes lets weigh things and be wise, but let us not be so confined to what we think that we miss Gods out-of-the-box approach right in front of us. Oh God let us not be pharisees and miss you infront of us because you don't fit within our ideas!

There have been gem stones turning up in churches and homes that Bill has visited in the mid-west and east coast. I've seen pictures of them - there's a whole box in one place. they are just appearing on floors and clothes and in peoples hands as they worship. One lady has the scar of where the gem came out of her hand. One pastor had one by his bed and it woke him up in the night vibrating. They are often hot to the touch and leave a hot spot on your hands where you held it. The biggest ones are bigger than the hope diamond. Many of them have been sent to experts in the field of precious stones. They have all come back with the report that they are perfect and that they are made of a substance that has never been found on earth. We had never had one at Bethel until sunday when one was found by a cleaner after the morning service. I held it and it was amazing - perfectly cut about 5mm high and 4mm wide (see my pic above).

Who are we to say that these things are pointless? In the same meeting a man who was completly blind in one eye was healed during worship and after the service i saw him freaking out again - he had just regained hearing in an ear where he had had his eardrum sergically removed some 20 years ago!

the crazy bulgarian and other things

So a week ago we had Georgian come speak at school. The most outragious and contagious person we've met - he is drunk, preaches drunk, gets people drunk and ministers out of drunk - its insane - but so so much fun! this guy is so overflowing with the spirit that people would get blasted just being near him - particularly if he fired his imaginary guns in your direction! He works a lot in hard to reach areas - muslim countries and enclaves and at home in the muslim ghettos of bulgaria where mny are saved by his 'hug' ministry as he passes on the touch of the Holy Spirit. He took the evening service too and we had a fire tunnle and a bit of a dance session into the late hours!

I realised that i havn't shown you the school/church. I will get an exterior shot at some point but in the meantime here's a pic of the main sanctury/ 1st year class/ christian school gym!!

It's pretty modest - they can only cram a 1000 people in at one time and with a home population of 3000 and a continual flow of visitors, its just not cutting it. There are 80 000 people in Redding, and when they all come into the kingdom (even when spread around the many great churches) there just isn't the space at the moment. It's perfect for school though - we fill it but there's still space to dance like lunitics and only occasionally knock someone out! Its such a place of freedom, naturally and supernaturally. We've had crazy swessions in this room - sometimes with the whole school dancing in the ailses, on the stage, in their seats. but my favourite session was just 2 of us with the music cranked up late at night - filling the empty space with dance and worship and prophesy. Its pretty special.

Introducing...!!

This last week has been the most intense for me so far - kinda a culmination of the other weeks which softened the ground for the Holy Spirit to work on me! It's so special! so this (above) is the new Sarah - she looks pretty similar but believe me - she's not the same!!

So other than hanging out with the Holy Spirit i've um been well um hanging out with the Holy Spirit - this is what i do a lot of ==>

- journaling - can't quite keep up with myself! We have a lot of reading, study and homework to do - so i have my nose in a book a lot! we're reading the whole bible this year and studying it in class as we go - its so good.

I'm really knowing daddy's love - he's provided me with some really key friends who are just pulling out the gold in me - yesturday we just had the giggles as we stepped into a new level of joy - its just so fun! Bill was sharing a profound messege with the first year of school - which was amazing too! All about not checking yourself for motives because it shifts your focuss of Jesus and His glorification - the devil loves to cripple us by getting us naval gazing!

You know His blessings are just so spectacular - i needed a car while i am here bacause it's built around cars here and your totally stuck without - so i prayed a momentry plea - 'God i don't know how but i need a car - can you sort it out for me?' the next day my roomate said i can car share her car - you wanna see the car God provided for free?... ok check this out for heavenly provision...

And after recieving financial blessing i just prayed for another guy at school who was struggling financially and he got an incredible financial blessing within a week! its crazy - we don't understand it all - but lets keep passing it on!!

Bless you all!