unresolved

I want to beg you as much as you can, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer. Perhaps you do carry within yourself the possibility of shaping and forming as a particularly happy and pure way of living; train yourself to it - but take whatever comes with great trust, and if only it comes out of your own will, out of some need of your innermost being, take it upon yourself and hate nothing.

Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

Stretching make us able to do things we couldn't do before...

It feels like everything God is speaking about to me is then repeated in some sermon at the moment - its amazing confirmation but very stretching! we were talking about being 100% focussed on our calling and not compromising and then overcomming fear to step into ministry situations we don't think we can do!!

As you all know, as soon as i'm behind a microphone i freak out! Its not a place i feel comfortable in and so generally avoid! But who knows that we all need to be free of fear and walk in confidence in all areas so that we can be flexibly used todevelop the kingdom in whatever way we need to? So, I've been avoiding the microphone, as per usual. But as it happens twice in two days I've gotten to share and pray over the whole school.

One of the words that got me to Bethel in the first place was ' if you can't get rid of the fear, then go scared, but go!' and the other day after i had been behind that microphone a couple of times, the woman teaching said 'if you can't get shot of the fear, then preach scared and beat it that way!' - wow - was so timely!

Being up there was scary but i knew i needed to speak and both times i prayed over the school the spirit touched people which was so cool - i was so honoured to be used by God and give Him glory even though it was hard to be up there!

***Heidi and Roland will be with us this weekend for the mrriage of ministries that's happening on Sunday between Bethel and Iris. Looking forward to Heidi speaking on Sunday - she has a lot to impart and it will be great to just absorb all she has. - I'l give you some feedback next week!